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It is my birthday. And so far it's pretty nice.

I got to pick up Andy last night, and even though he was so exhausted he was about to die, he was friendly. Much friendlier than last time I saw him. And we got back to my apartment and had some Taco Bell. Then Destiny came over for a little bit and we just chilled and talked. I love that girl.

But it's much nicer being woken up in the middle of the night to kisses rather than pokes. Looots of kisses and snuggles. :D

Atm he's in the shower, then we'll do a little bit of shopping at Walmart, and if I can get my mom up to drive us, we'll go to Disney World. :)

So I went to my friend's baby shower last night. Started off a bit slow, but after all the jello shots went around and music got turned up, I had some fun. I was no doubt the drunkest person there, but I don't really care. I work myself to death and I needed a night of fun.

Never gonna guess who showed up though. And I swear I'm not lying.
Chris Crocker.
At first I was like, that girl looks like a guy. Then I thought, that guy looks like Chris Crocker. And then once he was introduced I was like, ooooh! Chris Crocker at my friends baby shower, nice.

I got a good nights sleep, and I feel very refreshed this morning and ready for my 13 hour shift. Yaaay.

Photos soon.

Friday 5:30-10:30 (Box)
Saturday 4-10 (Box)
Sunday 5:30-Cl D (12:30ish) (Box)
Monday 5:30-10:30 (Box)
Tuesday 12-6 (Box) 6-10:30 (Door)
Wednesday 12-6 (Concession)
Thursday 12-6 (Box) 5-10 (Door)

Total hours (after breaks): 44.5 :D

I is a hardcore girl.

I feel like it's been a while since I wrote. Though I suppose I've been busy enough.

This past week (Friday-Thrusday) my schedule wasn't that great. I normally work everyday but Mondays, about 6 hours a day, and usually a double on Saturday. I had Monday and Tuesday off (I did request Tuesday but my plans changed so I needed my shift back) and no double on Saturday. I mean, my hours weren't cut horribly, but enough that I wasn't secure.

The only part that bummed me out was the pay period ended on Saturday, and I coudn't get anyone elses shift til Sunday. But that just means my next paycheck after this one should be bangin'.

Sunday I was originally scheduled 5:30 - closing door (meaning I sit and wait for an hour for the last theatre to get out around 12:30), but Saturday night someone called in sick, so I got her 12-6 shift. So I almost pulled 13 hours that day.
Then I pretty much got my usual shift back for Tuesday, - 1 hour, 1-6. Then someone else called in sick and I got their 5:30-10:30 shift that night.
Today someone had to go home an hour early so I got to come in an hour early to take over for them.

And this weeks schedule just came out tonight, and I work every single day. My hours aren't long, and no double, but I'm gonna see if I can't grab someone elses shift on Tuesday or something. Even if I don't it'll be alright.

My paycheck today wasn't too shabby to be honest. It was exactly what I calculated. But with all the extra shifts I was grabbing my paycheck on the 22nd should be a bit better. Every little bit helps.

And as I try and save money, I realised I spend a lot on food on my break. I don't wanna spend that much money, but I also wanna eat. Lucky for me I found a break buddy who (when we work together) will take me on break with him to his house and we can eat there for free.

Is it just me or do things just kinda seem to fall into place? :)

I bought my ticket back to Florida for the 5th, and once prices go down I'll by my ticket back here. Matter of fact, I should go ahead and check on those... Nope, not down yet. Probably on the 15th. No worries.

And with the money I'm saving I should be able to make it back to England. I might not have a ton of spending money, but I didn't spend that much last time. Just a few hundred should hold me. Though I should probably buy my ticket sometime this month, next pay day perhaps.

With working every day, it keeps me busy and makes time go by fast. Only 27 days til I'm home and I see my mom, and 29 days til I ge to see Andy again. It'll be great. :)

Maybe if it's not too cold tomorrow and the sun's out I'll lay out. I should have done it today but I woke up too late. Though my new dark hair makes me look a bit more tan anyway.

I'm just... happy. I hope this feeling sticks around.

Layer One: On the Outside
Name:: Cherry
Birthday:: Soon!
Current Location:: Not where I wanna be
Eye Color:: Blue
Hair Color:: Blonde... for now
Righty or Lefty:: Right
Zodiac Sign:: Scorpio

Layer Two: On the Inside
Your Heritage:: Cherokee, Polish
Your Fears:: Needles, the dark, bad things happening to my teeth...
Your Weakness:: British boys
Goal:: Make it back to England for Christmas/New Years

Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up:: Wtf is texting meee
Your bedtime:: 11 give or take an hour
Your most missed memory:: I don't miss memories, I still have them

Layer Four: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke:: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King:: Depends
Single or Group dates:: Depends, normally single
Adidas or Nike:: Nike
Lipton Tea or Nestea:: Yuck
Chocolate or Vanilla: Meh
Cappuccino or Coffee: Get away from me

Layer Five: Do You?
Smoke:: Weed when I can get some
Have a crush:: Umm, no?
Think you've been in love: Know I have
Want to get married:: Not really
Believe in yourself:: Sometimes
Think you're a health freak:: Not at all

Layer Six: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol:: Think so...
Gone to the mall:: Yup :D
Eaten Sushi:: Never
Gone skating:: Nope
Dyed your hair:: Not yet 

Layer Seven: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game:: I stripped during a game, if that counts
Gotten beaten up:: Nope
Changed who you were to fit in:: Not that I know of

Layer Eight: Getting Old
Age your hoping to be married:: Not really

Layer Nine: Perfect Mate
Best Eye Color:: Blue, though I don't mind that much
Best Hair Color:: Blonde, or black
Short or Long Hair:: Short

Layer Ten: What were you doing...
1 MINUTE AGO:: This...
1 HOUR AGO:: Being annoyed
1 DAY AGO:: To the hour, I was watching One Tree Hill
1 YEAR AGO:: I was here... shit

Layer Eleven: Finish the Sentence
I LOVE:: Stars
I FEEL:: Excited
I HATE:: Spending so much money
I HIDE:: My food
I MISS:: England
I NEED:: To save my money!

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1. Do you have any pets? No :(

2. What color of shirt are you wearing? Blue

3. Name 3 things physically close to you. Bag of Swedish Fish, purse, bra

4. What is the last book you read? I was reading Time Travelers Wife...

5. Were you a good student? I was great... until I got lazy

6. What is your favorite sport? Dancing

7. Do you enjoy sleeping late? Not too often or I get depressed

8. What's the weather like right now? Chilly

10. Whats your favorite food? Sweet stuff

11. Do you like the smell of gasoline? Love it

12. What is your favorite day of the week and why? Don't really have one, unless it's a week when I get paid, then it's a Thursday

13. What do you want to know about the future? What my next job is gonna be

14. Where were you on 9/11? At my mom's new house, annoyed cause news was on every channel

15. Do you hold grudges? Very well :) 

16. How many siblings do you have? 2 half sisters and 1 quarter sister, if you wanna get technical :)

17. What is something you will look forward to in the next 6 weeks? Andy visiting :D

18. Where is the last place you went? Bathroom

19. Who was the last person you called? Mommy

20. Do you untie your shoes everytime you take them off? Nope

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1. last beverage = Mellow Yellow

2. last phone call = Mommy, unless you count the phone calls I got at work

3. last text message = Hannah Hoover

4. last song you listened to = "Umbrella Beach" by Owl City

5. last time you cried = I almost cried the other day, don't think I did though... So maybe last week?

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated someone twice = Don't believe so

7. been cheated on = Apparently not

8. kissed someone & regretted it = Yes, yuck

9. lost someone special = True

10. been depressed = Doesn't everyone get depressed at some point

11. been drunk and threw up = Nope :)

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Purple
13. Blue
14. Green

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. Made a new friend = A few

16. Fallen out of love = Ummm

17. Laughed until you cried = Yup

18. Met someone who changed you = Don't think so

19. Found out who your true friends were = Did I ever have any?

20. Found out someone was talking about you = No... Why, what did you hear?

21. Kissed anyone on your EP friend's list = No

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your EP friends list do you know in real life = 1

23. How many kids do you want to have = If I have any, at least 2

24. Do you have any pets = Nope

25. Do you want to change your name =Not change, just get rid of

26. What did you do for your last birthday = I went to the fair with my friends, just like every other year, lol

27. What time did you wake up today = 8 something

28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Sleeping

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = Birthday!

30. Last time you saw your Mother = June :(

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = I wish I could have a job in Florida

32. What are you listening to right now = "Up Against The Wall" by *Nsync

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Paul = I had a supervisor named Paul at my first job 

34. What's getting on your nerves right now = Shoulders

35. Most visited webpage = EP

36. Where do you want to be right now? = Englaaand

37. Nicknames = Cherry, others depending on the person

38. Relationship Status = Single

39. Zodiac sign = Scorpio

40. Male or female? = Girl

41. Elementary? = What about it?

42. Middle School = I'm good

43. Whats your real name = Shhh!

44. Hair color = Blonde, with black roots

45. Long or short = Looong

46. Height = 5'7"-5'8"

47. Do you have a crush on someone? = Nope

48: What do you like about yourself? = Depends on the day

49. Piercings = 2 in each ear, belly button, and tongue

50. Tattoos = Star on my neck

51. Righty or lefty = Right

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery = Meh

53. First piercing = Ear, age 11

54. First best friend = Morgan

55. First kiss = Andy, age 16

56. First vacation = Disney World!

57. First sport you joined = Ballet? Is that a sport? Ummm, after that soccer

58. First crush = Josh, Kindergarden

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating = Your face

60. Drinking = Nada

61. I'm about to = Slap a bitch

62. Listening to = "Without Me" by Eminem

63. Waiting for = November 5th!

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids? = Not sure

65. Get Married? = Naaah

66. Career? = Pffft

WHICH IS BETTER

67. Lips or eyes = Ummm... I like both please

68. Hugs or kisses = Both!

70. Older or Younger = Older, but not too much

71. Romantic or spontaneous = You can be both

72. Nice stomach or nice arms = Arms

73. Sensitive or loud = Yuck, not too much of either

74. Hook-up or relationship = Depends on the boy

75. Trouble-maker or hesitant = I suppose I prefer more of the first

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger = Not a complete stranger

77. Drank hard liquor = I dunno... Does tequila count? I don't know anything about alcohol...

78. Lost glasses/contacts = I lost my moms sunglasses once

79. Sex on first date = Who needs a date?

80. Broken someone's heart = I suppose

81. Had your own heart broken = Sure have

82. Been arrested = Nada

83. Turned someone down = Mmhmm

84. Cried when someone died = Yes

85. Fallen for a friend? = Sure

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself = Some days

87. Miracles = Nooot really 

88. Love at first sight = Nope

89. Heaven = Not even close

90. Santa Claus = Awww

91. Kiss on the first date = Why not?

92. Angels = Nah

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

93. Had more than one BF at the same time? No

94. Do you believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? = For some people

95. Did you sing today? = Yeeah

96. Ever cheated on somebody? = Np

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = I dunno, I'm good for now

98. If you could pick a day and relive it, what would it be? = I dunno!

99. Are you afraid of falling in love with somebody else? = Not afraid

100. Posting this as 100 truths? = Hell to the no!

Boy is coming to visit for my birthday.

I am a busy girl, and I like it that way.

Tomorrow I get to go pick up my paycheck, deposit it, do a bit of shopping hopefully, and I have to call and make a hair appointment. Then I have work at 5 until around 10:30. Hopefully Saturday I'll have a double. I know on the 2nd I have a doctors appointment, and another on the 20th.

Just in general keeping busy, working 6 days a week, trying to hang out with people. It'll keep me going and earn me money until I get to go home for my birthday. I am majorly excited, mostly because of Andy visiting. I'm already planning it all in my head...

I get home on the 5th. Maybe go to the fair with some friends that night or the next night. Then Andy arrives on the 7th (most likely at night) and I take him home. :D Then my birthday we go to the fair and celebrate. And probably just hang out and chill for the rest of the time, maybe go to the fair another time, depending. Probably gonna get a tattoo, which I can't wait for. It's gonna be so much fun.

Work makes the days go by and makes me really happy I have a job.

But I'm going to ask, if you're reading this and you believe in prayer, please pray for my mom.

I've been having a horrible feeling for days now, but I figured it was just because I missed her so much, I was naturally worried.

My mom was sitting at the computer on Friday. The chair broke and she hit her eye on the corner of the desk. She was unconcious until Saturday. She thought the swelling of her eye was no big deal, she iced it. But when she went to her regular doctor she sees every few months, he said she has some broken bones in her face (and hand and wrist) and may have some internal bleeding in her head. He sent her to the ER this morning.

I called her this afternoon because it was my day off and I wanted to talk to her. She was in the waiting room and told me what happened. I dunno how long she'd been waiting there, but I made her get a ride back home and get an ambulance. Apparently when she got home and the neighbours saw her they called the ambulance for her, which doesn't make me feel any better. But she's at the hospital now and as of last I heard they're taking care of her.

She told me she might need to have part of her face reconstructed. I've been crying pretty much all day. I wanted to go home so badly. If I could drive I would've been in that car half way to Florida by now.

Just after her strokes in her brain before, I just worry, and I want her to be ok. I just really wanna go home and hug her.

***UPDATE***

Less than 5 minutes after I posted this my mom called me. She's waiting on a cab to take her home from the hospital. Apparently there were some complications with jackass doctors. Since my mom's been on heavy-duty painkillers (morphine, oxycontin, ect...) for a good 10 years now (because of the strokes) the doctors at the hosptial all think she's a drugs addict so they wouldn't give her anything for the pain. But she made it out alive. She got a contusion on the orbital bone around her eye, no bleeding, and her hand should be ok. They wanted to put it in a splint, but since they were all being dickheads she told them to shove it up their asses. That's my mom. :) But she's gonna call back in a few minutes when the cab gets there so in case the creepy cab driver tries to mess with her she'll be on the phone with me.

I am so relieved and I can breathe now. I was prepared for the worst, but glad I got the best. I just can't wait until I get home for her birthday in less than 2 months. 2 months and everything will be ok again. Thanks to everyone who sent their wishes and prayers (in the less than 30 minutes this was up). It must have helped and I'm extremely grateful.

I let go of Colt the other night. Not sure what else to call it since we were never official. After he walked out on me and made absolutely no effort to make up for it, I lost interest.

I wouldn't mind being friends though, I prefer keeping things on good terms whenever possible. This is what I get:

Colt says:
im here but ima be honest im not expecting to much because im not friends but with like 1 of my ex's and they all said they'd like to be friends...not saying that sitation would happen here but outa however many ex's i have none turn out to be friends hehe they seem to say that just as a "easy way out"

Cherry says:
well I generally make the effort to be friends with exes. Only reason I'm not friends with Drew is cause he's a dickhead :) lol. You're not that bad

Colt says:
ah....that bad

Cherry says:
lighten up, I'm teasing

Colt says:
lol i know im just saying whatever happens between us happens not getting hopes up for a good friendship unless the effort is there to be friends...again not saying it "cant" happen but as a result of my ex's they all dont talk to me anymore but one heh

Cherry says:
yeah, and I'm talking to you now

Colt says:
lol i know but its only been a few days "after" that whole incident thats usually pretty common

Cherry says:
well I guess if I'm common there's no point

Cherry says:
can't say I didn't try

Colt says:
what did i just mention up there i said "not saying it will happen here but in my head its common cause its happened over and over"

Colt says:
didnt say you were "common" just said has to be some effort there for a friendship instead of the ocassional "hey how are you" and "bye"

Cherry says:
well I'm making more effort than you have :P

I guess we'll see what happens. Apparently he needs time to get over it. Seems he was in pretty deep. Funny how he showed it at times. Ah well.

I have been talking to Andy though. Before he mentioned he should probably learn to drive rather than visiting me, but recently he mentioned he might visit instead. I dunno, his visits usually never turn into much, lol. But as long as things stay good I should be back for New Years. I probably already have enough for the ticket. Perhaps I should start looking, Andy was pestering me about it. And he's back to texting me every so often, and I can talk to him on the phone sometimes which is good. Just gotta be careful... Cautious.

But yeah, I suppose I am gonna go look at some flights. And hoepfully I'll get some sleep tonight. I got about 4 hours last night, MAYBE. :( It sucked.

He says he wants to make me happy. I tell him how to make me happy. The things he was doing weren't making me happy. He still does them.

There's a problem, I tell him how to fix it, and when he keeps not doing it he gets upset with ME.

He came over, and when I tried to be close with him and snuggle up, he just held his iPod in front of my face, which he has done on quite a few occassions. And he's "all about respect." Bullshit. So I called him on it. Then we're in the middle of a very important conversation about our problems, he takes a call and decides he's gonna go see some other girl, who he's been seeing a lot frequently. He litterally walked out in the middle of the conversation saying I WASN'T TALKING TO HIM! HE FUCKING LEFT!

He's making me decide if I want him or Andy. This is not helping his case at all. I'd rather be alone.

Please, let me just fade into my fantasies. Let me become so delusional I'm happy. Let me just pretend forever.

I feel like I'm slowly losing my mind. As time goes by, it's more difficult for me to differenciate between fantasy and reality. Should I care? There's nothing I can do about it. Not sure if I wanna do anything about it.

I dunno.

I think I've pretty much decided what I wanna do.

There's so much I wanna see, and do, and experience that settling down and mapping out a career just isn't in the picture for me yet. I'll probably just keep simple minimum wage jobs where I get all the hours and every few months I can travel somewhere. Maybe in a few years I'll feel content enough to get into college.

I know I'm gonna sound corny, but I'm like a bird. That's the only way I can think to describe it. But I'm young, and single and the whole world is out there and I have a passport. Why the hell not go and explore? I bet it'll be way more fun than sticking to college where I have a really constricted schedule.

I have been pretty busy lately. Work 5-6 days out of the week, and when I'm not working I'm hanging out with Colt.

I'm actually in the process of getting ready for a 12.5 hour shift at work, but half is selling tickets, other half tearing so it's not bad at all. I only get concessions 2 days out of the week now and they're day shifts so it's never busy.

My ex got fired. :) Never thought that would happen. Apparently he stole an Alice in Wonderland banner and the rumour got round to the bosses. Serves him right, he turned into a douche. And now he's gone I can work door. It was kinda funny cause I showed up at work really early with Colt, and we were messing around and he was giving me a piggy back, and Drew walked in to turn in his uniform, and totally ignored us. He said hi to the person next to us, but just pretended like me and Colt didn't exist. Oh well.

I got smacked in the head with a metal pole last night. Hurt like a bitch and I have a pretty nasty knot on my forehead. But no headache or anything.

I got my tongue pierced Tuesday. Randomly decided to do it which seemed best. Colt went with me. He didn't even wanna hold my hand! But it didn't really hurt. I mean, it's annoying now cause my tongue is swollen, but it should go down in a few days, hopefully. I'm glad I did it and didn't think about it.

I'm trying to save up for a few trips. I'm trying to take Colt to Disney World in December, and maybe Busch Gardens, and then I wanna go back to England for New Years. But I also wanna go home for my mom's and my birthday. That's 3 seperate trips. But I already have a few hundred saved, I should be making at least $400 every 2 weeks. I still have to calculate how much for each trip. :S

Andy mentioned possibly visiting in October or Novemeber, but we'll see how that turns out.

Trying to read the Time Traveller's Wife, but haven't picked it up in a few days. :( On the way to work today I'll try and read some.

Speaking of which I should be on my way, gotta get that money.

I'm nearly finished with my trip. I leave day after tomorrow quite early in the morning. :( I don't even wanna think about it.

A few things have happened here. Been out drinking, smoked for the first time in months, saw old friends, ect.

I don't wanna go home yet. I'm just getting comfortable. It's not fair. :(