The Blog of melody08

I am in love with a guy I haven't even seen in at least a year. I met him in middle school (collective "awww") yes, when I was 13. God, I looked horrible. Stringy black hair, white skin, acne, braces, out of control eyebrows, it was bad, lol. Yeah, so he happened to be in one of my classes at the beginning of the year (I had to take a few extra weeks of seventh grade before I could be promoted to eighth) but he wasn't younger than me, because apparently he'd been held back as well. I remember the first time I had any sort of encounter with him, I had to sit a table next to him. I was facing the front of the classroom, but his table was turned facing my direction. He had black hair, and a lot of facial hair for a 13 year old, and was tall and fit and a football player. Hotness. So, I'm sitting in front of him, and he's sitting beside me, if that makes sense, lol. And I finish my work early because it's very simple and I look around to notice he's just staring at me. And when I look at him he makes no point of looking away embarrassed. He just continues staring. Kinda in a creepy way. I asked him why he was staring at me but he never said anything. Just sat there and stared. I was a bit shy and this freaked me out a bit.

I'm not sure how it really happened, but we started hanging out together at lunchtime. My friends and I didn't eat lunch and we would just hang around outside in the courtyard, and he would come over and hang out with us for a while. He seemed to like to hug me and be near me, which didn't bother me one bit. Now, I was known for always having an assortment of gum. Juicy Fruit, Bubble Yum, minty stuff. And I always wore a baggy jacket with a pocket on the front, and kept the gum inside it. At lunchtime I would always share my gum with my friends. One day, this boy came over and asked for some gum, as he usually did. Don't ask me why, but I said I didn't have any. But this didn't turn out to be too much of a bad thing, because luckily he knew I was kidding and tried to reach into my jacket pocket to snag some. I quickly turned around and dug my hands into my pocket so as to protect the gum, but he just reached around me from both sides (like a backwards hug) and forced his hands into my pocket. We play fought over the gum for a little bit before he finally got hold of some.

(I remember little meaningless things and details as you can tell, lol)

So the school year went by. I discovered hair straighteners and tweezers, thank God. I do have to say, I looked a hell of a lot better leaving that school than I did when I went it. But back to the story! One day, I had bought a new shirt and decided I wouldn't wear a jacket to school that day so I could show it off. As luck would have it, it was chilly outside. (Just to make things clear, it's not like I went around in winter with no coat, it was just a chilly day!) So at lunchtime (note: by this time of the year I had no classes with this boy anymore since I was put into eighth grade and he remained in seventh, but we did still have the same lunch period) I was cold and had little goosebumps and all that, so he came over and offered me his nice warm jacket. I became a retard for a second and said no. But he told me to just take it. I became even more retarded and refused it a second time. What the fuck was wrong with me that day I will never know. So I didn't get to wear his jacket. :(

But I did later oooon. :D

SO! After that school year ended I went on to high school while he stayed in middle school. Then a month into my sophomore year a decided to drop out. Not that he even went to my high school because he moved to another city and went to a different school.

Then the state fair rolled around, as it does every year, and it's always open on my birthday, so I celebrate there. This was my sixteenth birthday, and I wanted to make it special so I went twice, lol. Thank God I did as well. Yes, I went once on the weekend with a friend, and then decided to go again, this time by myself, during the week when most kids wouldn't be able to go. So I rode some rides for a while, and decided to ride one of the scariest ones, so I got in line (which was short so I was near the front) and waited for my turn. There were already people on the ride, but I would be able to go next. I looked at the ride and recognized one of my friends, Alex, who happens to be good friend with this boy. As it turns out, they're at the fair together. Yay for me! But something happens and they have to get everyone off the ride before it starts because something was malfunctioning. So Alex and this boy and this boys sister all get off the ride and have to get back at the front of the line. Since I was friends with Alex, I went up and cut everybody else. (I know, I'm evil, but it was my birthday! And it was only like, 3 people anyway.) I didn't really say anything to this boy because I felt a bit nervous, and so I maintained chatter with Alex. We got on the ride (which I was fucking scared of since it was malfunctioning only moments earlier and now we're the first ones back on it) and when it was over the three of them invited me to hang out with them for the rest of the night. At first I just hung out with Alex mainly, and then went on some rides with this boy's sister and finally, fate happened. (Wow, I make this all sound so dramatic.) It had been a while, at least 45 minutes, since I joined the group, and this boy and I had still not really acknowledged each other. So this boys sister finds some of her friends and wanders off and then Alex decides to walk off to buy some weird novelty hat. I was left standing alone next to this boy. And what does he do? He says, "Don't worry, I won't ditch you like Alex," and puts his arm around me. I could have just squealed with delight! This did however create minor tension since Alex had been flirting with me, well, since middle school (I met him the same time I met this boy) and now that his best friend was entering the competition, he felt a bit inferior I believe, since Alex was a bit shorter, and heavier than this boy. So Alex runs back over to us and this boy teasingly chews him out over ditching me. All very friendly. So the three of us rode some ride together. But something happened, and Alex got separated for a bit, and this boy and I still wanted to ride rides, so we did. I remember one ride I was totally getting smushed into him by gravity. But he had his arm around me still, so it was nice. And when the ride ended he hopped off and turned around and offered me his hand to help me down. So sweet! :D We ended up spending the entire night at the fair together. He would have his arm around me, compliment little things about me, and whenever he ran into someone he knew he always introduced me as his girl. I could have melted. This is the first night we've seen each other in a year and a half and he's calling me his girl! Then it started to get very cold. I had a jacket on, but it was small and didn't do much to keep me warm. At this point Alex was off again doing whatever, and this boy saw I was cold. Fate smiled on me and he offered me his jacket, again. Guess what I said? I rejected it! Can you believe that?! Ugh! *Hits self in the head* I told him that if I took his jacket he would have nothing to keep him warm. He seemed alright with that. And I made up another excuse, and said I'd I have to carry MY jacket around all night. He said he'd carry it for me. Thank God, I was out of excuses and agreed to wear the lovely, warm, big jacket. It was sooooo nice! But after I put it on, my hands were still ice cold, so out of habit I started rubbing them together. He noticed this and took my hands in his (I KNOW!) and rubbed them together and didn't stop until they were warm. Oh. My. God. It was WONDERFUL! And he looked me right in the eyes the whole time. I don't think I will ever forget that image. Him standing right in front of me, very close, his face inches from mine, his big brown eyes looking down into mine, bright flashing lights behind him. I swear for a moment the world went quiet. And then Alex returned. But it was ok. Yes, the best moment was over, but I was still wearing his jacket, and he decided he would wear mine, even though it was obviously meant for a girl, and was way too small for him. But I wasn't gonna complain, it showed off his lovely muscles. :) We ran into more people, and they would think it was odd we had switched jackets, but it didn't matter. And, another plus about wearing his jacket, he got to hug me from behind and put his hands into the front pocket, while leaning his head onto mine. :) I do have to say, I'm pretty sure that was the first time in my life I ever felt a boner against me, lmao. Anyways! As the night wore on, Alex became increasingly jealous that I was giving the majority of my attention to this boy instead of him. I remember near the end of the night, we went to sit down on a bench, and I sat on the end, and the boys actually fought over who was gonna sit next to me. I watched, secretly enjoying the attention, and they decided this boy would go get some cotton candy while Alex got to sit next to me. He took advantage of it as well, cuddling up next to me. Then this boy returned and Alex had to get up to go get drinks. The drink stall was only 2 feet in front of us, but this gave this boy plenty of time to take Alex's spot next to me as we shared the cotton candy. When Alex turned around he got jealous once again. So, I sat on this boys lap so I would still be sitting next to Alex to make him happy. I'm so clever aren't I? :P

But the wonderful night had to come to an end. So sad. :( We talked about exchanging numbers and coming back to the fair again, just me and this boy, but there was some commotion and we completely forgot about it until we had left. But since this boy and Alex had come together, they left together as well, and according to Alex, this boy could not stop talking about me on the way home. I was so delighted, even though every time I've tried to get Alex to tell me this boys number something happens and he forgets. Grrr him! So we never did go back to the fair. I got another boyfriend, and he got another girlfriend. I've seen him one time since the fair, but he was all over another girl. Which shouldn't have bothered me since I had a boyfriend anyway. That's twice I've seen him since November, 2006, and I still can't keep him off my mind. When I get back home to Florida I need to bug Alex to get us all to hang out together. Or at least get his number or something. I've gotta see this boy!