The Blog of melody08

So I've now been in Tennessee for a whole week, and I'm already bored. Ugh. I was so happy to get away from home, and now I'm just so... Blah! I was hoping there would be some summer programs or something to do. But EVERYTHING around here involves God, and since I don't believe in "God" I don't think I would fit in very well, not to mention my purple, blue, and pink hair and my tattoo and piercings... But I am so damn bored I was seriously contemplating joing one of these bible camp things just to get a rise out of someone. I know they'd try and brainwash me. I looked at their sites, and it's all about teaching you to have faith in God and passing the message along and all that. I have no problem with anyone who believes in God, or Gods, or whatever. As long as they don't try to push it on me, I could care less. To each their own is what I believe. So yeah, I don't really like the part of "passing on the message," but if I get too much more bored I might go for fun.

I might be going to camp for a week next month though. It's this girl scout camp in North Carolina I used to go to when I was younger, but for some reason I stopped going. So I just thought of it this summer, but I'm 1 year too old for all the programs, but I was the perfect age to train to be a counselour. Too bad that one is already filled up. WHICH doesn't make any sense since on the site they said they've been having low registration for the past few years. But whatever. So I tried to get into another program, (which I was 1 year too old for) but they didn't seem to have too much of a problem with it. I've lied about my age before at that camp and got away with it, this time shouldn't be too different. So it jsut so happened they had one spot left in this program because someone called and cancelled this morning. Once again, not really understanding why they said they had low registration, but whatever. So we signed up, but I have to get loads of doctors notes and crap. And get my prescription. It's gonna be messy getting all this done, not to mention expensive. AND they don't bus kids there anymore like they used to. Now you have to drive yourself. That's a long frickin' way to drive! Ugh. Yeah, I'm beginning to change my mind about all this, lol. I might just get a job at the local grocery store or something.

My grandma did take me out today, and I needed some books so she took me to the bookstore. And there were these 2 cute guys (which is RARE around here) right in my aisle! I was totally gonna talk to them, but my grandma comes over and just blew it for me! I dunno what it is, but whenever I'm here, she can't leave me alone. If I go upstairs to my room, or the bathroom, within 5 minutes I hear her climbing the stairs. She just keeps going into ther room for a minute, but she only does that after I come upstairs. It's really odd. And everytime I get something to eat, she asks what it is. I can't do anything without her asking a million questions. Then she talks to me in this baby voice, which was amusing when I was a little kid, but I'm 17 years old dammit! I told her that it annoys me, and she was just like, "You're still my little baby though," in the baby voice no less. ARG! *Pulls out hair* How the fuck am I supposed to have any sort of conversation, let alone a serious one if she insists on speaking to me like a child?! She doesn't talk like that to my mom. Quite the opposite really. She has no problem making my mom feel bad, but is the complete opposite when it comes to me. I think I remember my mom telling me something about my grandma wanting to treat me as her own child when I was born, as another chance since she didn't do extremely well with my mom... I dunno. But she needs to realise I am grown up. I have held a job, I have visited another freaking country by myself, I'm no virgin, I mean, come on! What else do I have to do to show her I'm not a baby anymore?!

Plus, there are these awkward times... I really dunno how to describe it, so I guess I can only give examples. For instance, we were driving today, and all the sudden she just goes, "I just thought of something!" So I say, "What is it?" And she starts stammering. I HATE it when people stammer. If you just started a conversation, you should know what it is you're gonna talk about and not sit there and stammer at me. (Annoying pet peeve I guess, lol.) Finally she gets out that she thinks my mom ran out of gas. (My mom has been having some problems with the car lately.) So I explain to her that my mom doesn't even come CLOSE to letting that car run out of gas. She flips out if it's below the halfway mark. So my grandma says, "Yeah, but she only put so much in it and then got lost for a couple hours, remember?" And I tried to tell her that it doesn't matter if my mom was lost or not, she wouldn't have let the car run out of gas. And if she did let it run out of gas, how did she make it home? But she wouldn't listen to me, so she calls my mom right then and tells her she ran out of gas. My mom told HER that she never runs out of gas and that's not what's wrong with the car. (It's the battery by the way, we had this figured out before I left. My grandma just thinks it's something else.) So my grandma's like, "Well it sounds like you ran out of gas. Are you sure you didn't?" It was this overly-long conversation that had no business happening in the first place. Finally it was decided mom did NOT run out of gas and that was it. But a couple hours later, my grandma reaches for the phone again (we're still driving) and I'm wondering who she's calling now. One guess. I hear her say, "Did you start to the car to check the gas gauge?" OMFG! Would you let it go already? It's not the fucking gas. It's the BATTERY! My mom really does not need this stupid stress, seeing as how I just left and now she's all alone with a messed up car. I wish my grandma would just leave her alone sometimes.

Mmmm... Writing about this stuff is starting to piss me off. I think I might just curl up with some Gossip Girl, book or TV show, not sure which yet. Though I did just get 2 more Gossip Girl books today which are calling out to me. I might just finish this one I'm reading now, and then watch some of the show, which I have downloaded to my lovely laptop. :) The guys on that show are so freaking HOT by the way. ;) I could just kiss them all over... *Slips off into dreamland*