Confused... | melody08's Blog

I'm not quite sure what to make of the past couple days. Today was the first time I saw Colt for about 3 days. It was nice.

Last night I talked to Andy. Literally. He called me and everything. We spoke for about 4 hours until I finally made myself go to bed. There were some quite interesting points in the conversation. He did tell me he loved me, more than once. Said he wanted to take me out to a nice dinner when I got back, walk me home, get to know me well again. Then he said if we still had a connection he wanted to ask me to be his girlfriend again.

But he was drinking a lot. For about 13 or 14 hours I believe. I wanted to believe him, and I did I think. Until I got an offline message from him...

let me outta this cage said:
sorry if i was a bit weird last nite lol binge drinkin! lol ttyl xx

*Sigh* Least I didn't get my hopes too high.

It was making me stress about Colt. Cause I love Colt, I do. But I love Andy, too. And I have a massive history with him. But if we did get back together, we'd never see each other... And Colt is really good for me. We have good things in common, like the whole wanting to travel and see the world thing. I told him we'd go to Disney World. But I can't have my cake and eat it too.

I guess we'll just have to see what happens when I get there. I have to admit, I'm a bit scared...