No Right | melody08's Blog

I was talking to Andy the other day. Things were fine and dandy, talking for hours. Then I mentioned Colt was coming over, and things seemed to go sour...

As soon as I mentioned I was having company he got really jealous. He even admitted it, so I'm not just thinking it. He was all, "You're gonna fuck him aren't you?" It was like, woah, where did that come from? Just cause I'm having a guy over doesn't mean I have to have sex with him. Even if I did, what does it matter to you? You're not my boyfriend, you made sure of that 2 years ago.

I've talked to Andy about other guys before, and he never seemed to have an issue. This was just abrupt. Then he's all, "I wanna see him." So I left the cam on when I brought him in, and then Andy gets real pissed off. Basically he just called me a cumhole and said I disgusted him. I'm pretty sure he may have blocked me as well.

Then I got an offline from him saying to not talk to him and that I actually make him sick. Ummm, excuse me! We are not together! You don't have the right to be jealous and make a big deal over this shit. Seriously, grow up. I've told you before if you didn't want me to be with other guys, you should get serious with me, but you said no. What do you want from me? I'm not stopping you from going out with other girls. Hell, you've gone out with other girls and still come back to me telling me you're in love with me.

It's not like I meant to hurt him. I love him. But we can't be together. I figured since I've talked about other guys before it was fine. But apparently this time got on his last nerve. If he would have said he didn't wanna know about it I would have been more than fine. But all this time he seemed ok with it... Apparently not

He won't return my texts and I'm thinking he's blocked me on MSN. Part of me is upset that I hurt him, and part of me is pissed off cause he has no right to be hurt anyway. I don't want him to hate me when I come to visit. :(

But I also really really like Colt, and I feel like I'm being unfair to him not just being his girlfriend. I mean, these past few days spent with him have been pretty amazing. We just lay and talk and don't realise 6 hours have gone by. He's told me things he hasn't told anyone else. He makes me so happy, happier than I've been for a while. I can't even finish this blog because he's texting me so much, ha ha.

I told him how I had to pester his friends for his number and he told me how he really wanted to ask me for my number but chickened out. I thought it was kinda sweet. :) And I never get bored of kissing him, which is weird. I'm not sure that's happened before, except perhaps with Andy... But we can just kiss for hours and not realise so much time has passed, or we'll just cuddle for ages.

Anyways, I'm gonna go ahead and go to bed, even though I'm not tired. I guess we'll just have to see what happens with this Andy mess...