Damn | melody08's Blog

I don't really have a reason to feel this way, but I do. I'm really down. I don't wanna say depressed, only cause I don't really wanna admit it, but that's how I feel.

My day started fine. Work was good. There was hardly anyone there, so half the workers got sent home early. I got to stay late thankfully. So me and some girl played hangman for a while, which was surprisingly amusing. Then the 5:30 people started coming in and I didn't know any of them, and they weren't very friendly. They were all so quiet, or just kinda ignored me. I would try and talk to them, and it was like they didn't wanna include me. That really bummed me out not having anyone to talk to.

But I saw some friends from last time I worked there, and they all came up and welcomed me back (if they hadn't already seen me yesterday). All except Drew who seems to be avoiding/ignoring me. Whatever, if he wants to be a dick about it that's his problem. But everyone else is glad to see me, and they keep telling me how tan I am. I'm not really tan, just sunkissed. But at least I look good! But a really good friend of mine ended up breaking up with his girlfriend (she broke up with him, twice in the last week) and he's pretty messed up about it. But I gave him a really big hug and told him I still love him so no need to be too down! I wish I could make him feel better though. :(

So my last couple hours of work I didn't even have a register, I just helped out other people. But it should have earned me like, $12 or something, which is always good.

I'm pretty down about having to do it all over again tomorrow. I liked it when it was me, Derek, and Felicia. Now it's me and a whole bunch of people who don't seem too fond of me. I don't like working on the weekends. Too many people. But oh boy am i looking forward to Wednesday. I have to get to work at 8:30, to deal with some fucking field trip. By myself. And I won't leave til 6. Fuck fuck fuck. Just gotta grin and bear it and keep in mind I need the money.

Ugh, and I gotta go to bed soon so I can get up early to go back to work. At least this weekend is totally dead.

I miss my friend so much.